FOR THE SENIORS:how to forgive parents for rough and loveless childhood?

hello their...ever since i was little, i witnessed domestic violence alot...all i remember from everything in my childhood was violence violence violence...now im 21 and i myself got into a relationship with a man and it was more violence and abuse. i feel like i can never get away from all this violence. my whole family is violent and i resent my parents sooo much for making me go thorugh this..i hate going home everyday becuase everytime i look at their face they let me down as parents. please i need adivce on how to cope. please dont tell me to move out. i dislike my parents right now but, im not ready or responsible enough to move out on my own. i still feel like i have unfinished business at my home. its a very depressing home. with dark memories. i know your supposed to love your parents and i do but, i resent them for not letting me have a happy childhood and now as an adult i face alot of problems such as low self esteem, ual problems, trauma, depression. i know im my own person and i shouldent blame other ppl for my problems but i know i wouldve been much happier as a person now if my parents wouldve loved each other and not use violence while i was growing up,..do u see why i resent them? i feel like because of them i have issues now as an adult. they scarred me. and it hurts becuase its not a stranger, its my own flesh and blood.